Oh fuuuuudddddddgggggggeeeeee......

I started Insanity yesterday. I did the fit test and it was harder than a drag queens wiener at a M.A.C. counter!!! But I did it!

I did day 2 this morning and I nearly started crying/hyperventilating in the middle of the workout. I did have to stop a few times, which is normal and suggested, but I did it!

I'm using the nutrition guide as well. The food is pretty good even though I have to eat soooo flippin much. I really thought it was no big deal and that I would still be hungry but hell no! I didn't even want to finish my sandwich the morning. (I did, though. Lol, old habits die hard.) And I have had nothing but water so far. I hope to drink one gallon a day.

So far, I'm sore as hell, I smell like a foot dipped in shit, I don't want to eat, and I'm still seriously lightheaded. But you know what??? IT FEELS FUCKING GREAT!!!

I'm not tired, I don't feel sluggish, I feel awake/alert, and I'm not in a foul mood like I usually am. I was still sweating my ass off an hour after I finished the DVD.

This is proving to me that nothing is impossible if you want it badly enough!!! I have been inspired by a few people but I actually took the initiative and motivated myself. When I wanted to stop in the workout I surprised myself. As cheesy and unbelievable as it sounds, instead of saying "Forget this shit!" when i felt like i was going to pass out, I said "I can do this!" and I kept going. It really is hard, I'm not going to lie. I'm a big old fat person so this is no fucking picnic for me but even the people in the video struggle and stop and they're fit as hell. You just have to ask yourself how badly you want it. I want this sooo bad I can taste it. It's bitter, salty, and resembles the flavor of balls but I WANT IT! And I will do it!!!

150lbs, here the fuck I come! WATCH OUT!!!