Losing Motivation...

It's been awhile and a lot has happened. I am officially/legally divorced. I was having a hard time with it but once I got passed my final hearing I actually felt a lot better. That wasn't the case leading up to that point. I was having bad dreams when I actually was able to sleep, I was worried because I really didn't know what to expect since we did all of this without lawyers, I was dealing with a lot of emotional issues and anger... It was just a bad time. I started neglecting my house, avoiding dealing with some of my sons behavior issues, and neglecting myself again. Totally backslid. I have binged a few times, I have skipped workouts, and basically let myself do things I previously refused to do anymore. (Funny thing is, I binged on healthy stuff to the point it wasn't healthy anymore. I didn't go out and cram cheeseburgers into my face.) I'm really trying to get my shit back together but am seriously lacking in motivation lately. I know that carrying on and taking care of myself are what's best for me but I just feel so blah lately. 3 pounds worth of blah and carelessness and I just feel yucky. I wish I could just kick myself in the ass and stay on track. I'm really trying to get back into goal mode. I don't want to feel or look like this. Major bad times are over and I'm free to move forward so why am I being such a lazy sack of shit right now??? Even as I speak I just feel lethargic and winded. I don't like it! I gotta get my shit together!!! I'm so close to breaking my first goal I can't drop anchor now. I need motivation! Help???